Well....it has definetely been a while. But I guess I can't really complain. You know it's like everyone says: You control your life!

Well recently I have come to terms with that and I have been basically trying to come to terms with everything in my life and continue from that point. Things with school are actually going pretty well, and I have just been trying to get things together aside from that. I can't believe I have gotten this for to finally decide that I want to chagne my mind about what I want out of life. I had always made it a decision within myself to pursue my career as a criminal lawyer. Well, that has officially flown from my head. What do I want to do now? Good question! LOL.

Aside from that, things on the home front are okay. I've been very tired lately, and I have been going to sleep really early. I just basically had alot of things happen for me in the last month. I mean things i hoped I wouldn't have to go through I did. But I have gotten through all of them and I am trying to continue on. I have made it a decision within myself not to allow myself to be hurt and stressed beyone my manage. I mean shit happens and I can understand that. But when it comes to things that I am not ready to get rid of, yeah I can deal with it anyway I want because they're not a necessity. So I have decided not to let them run me crazy.

For instance, my boyfriend lately has been driving me crazy. And his reasoning for acting the way he does is that he doesn't feel that he should have stress in this relationship, because he has stress everywhere else. No I know that's some bullshit. How can you expect that just because things are crazy in your everyday life, when you come home things are going to be perfect. That's just not realistic. And from that moment I realized that things weren't going to work if he continued to think this way. I mean because truth is it's just not going to happen. No matter how much he wants it to, it ain't gonna happen. Thing are sometimes gonna be in disarray and you will have to deal with them(although in his case he just rathers get up and leave). But hey, such is life. I'm not ready to give up yet, but I do know that I can't change any man. So whatever happens, is in the Lord's hands.