Hey all. It's been a long time since I've been on here. But then again there isn't really much going on with my life. The new semester has started and it really is a bunch of work. I guess I never realized how much work it was...probably because I'm trying to graduate now.  It's a little frustrating but I'm doing what I have to do to get by.

On another note I startd a new job about half an hour away from my school. It's not the best job in the world and I don't make that much money...but it gets the bills paid and it's not stressful. Not to mention the fact that I can do all of my homework while I'm at shcool so I never really complain. Of course there are also a few guys that work with me that are just gorgeous. It's really funny because the first one asked me out...like seriously asked me out on a date...then he never called and straight stood me up. However, the other one(the one that I was really interested in ), he won't ask me out and won't give me the time of day. You would think that I was tryna beat him over his head or something.  I mean...not that I should be looking for a man anyways...but I'm tired of being single. And for some reason I'm just not getting any play. Then...out of nowhere...he comes to work yesterday and he's like...I have somethign for you. So I'm wondering what it is and all...and I'm getting off of work and he says he'll give it to me then. So he comes out and he gives me this cd. Now...we've just finished talking about the Justin Timberlake so I figure he's talking about that. WORNG! He's like last night I heard this song and it reminded me of you...just listen to the cd...it's #4. So I get in my car and start listening to the song and it's #4 from Danity Kane. Now for those unfamiliar with their cd (I was too!) the song talks about how much the singer wants this guy...but there is something stopping her from acting out these feelings. I mean the song goes on and on about how she feels thinking about him and how she'd"'take'' him if she could...I mean the song is actually very nice.

Brief snippet:

You make me wanna do, something I never do (never do)
Wanna go there with you (with you)
All the way there (there), touch me there (there), take me there with you (there with you)
Boy I’m scared of you
Nothing compares to you
I’m not prepared to do it

So I can love you (right now)
Like I want to (right now)
He just can’t do it
And it’s taking everything in me
I want to (right now)
No I want to (right now)
It’s this one rule
(And it’s keeping me from giving you my love)

So as you can expect now...I'm all confused!  I mean dude...what's stopping you. I know that he recently got out of a realtionship...and he wanted her back...but then why tell me to listen to the song. Or maybe he doesn't think the idea of working with someone he's talking to is a good idea. I'm not sure what the reason is. But I know I'm all shook up in the brain now. And what's funny about it...is that my boss had actually told me he was interested also. So it's really weird. I'm not sure where to go from here! And then to make it even worse...I have another ticket to the Roots (they're coming to my school) and I was going to ask him to go but now I'm not sure. Any suggestions?

Needless to say...I'm keepign everything on the low right now. I just bought a ticket to go to Jamaica over winter break and I can't wait. I miss home!  Can't wait for the real food and the island breeze. Anywho...I guess that's it. I'll try and stop by soon. Oh and did I mention it's getting cold up here in Philly. But the weather has been really spuratic. One moment it's cold outside...the next it's all warm. Go figure!